She almost lost confidence in herself
Almost stumbled over her self.
Last I remember she stopped taking out
The time to take care of herself.
Because she didn’t think it necessary,
Or maybe the world just didn’t deserve so much.
She stopped liking much of the person she saw
Each time she looked straight into the mirror.
This didn’t happen in one day
This didn’t happen in one week,
Neither did this happen in a month.
It was, rather, a monthly downward spiral.
The beauty became so ordinary- even to herself.
Then she started to see reasons why
Things didn’t go right- or even as planned.
Her plans were always right
Her predictions always precise
Where could she be?
She didn’t even know that
she was going in the wrong direction.
She needed to see the person she was before.
Not to go back to her past
But to find that gracious person
Who had a smile on no matter what.
That person who saw only the good in others
No matter how badly hurt she was.
The person who believed only in the Truth.
The person who never doubted for one moment
That dreams always come true.
The person who made others happy
The one who lets go of all her cares.
The person whom the little angel
Always wanted to grow up to be like.
The person who changed for love
The person who gave all for love.
The one who always won against all odds
That ray of sunshine in the dark world.
I’ve asked myself through it all
Where is she?